Adrian Ivashkov walks my dreams

How do I know that you’re distancing yourself from me? How do I know that despite all you say?

Because I have distanced myself from others in the exact same way. Saying exactly the things that you do now.

I always think I make the wrong decisions.

But at least on most occasions, I let go of the right people.

You know what? I am done. This has to go away. You can’t have this effect on me. You most definitely can’t do that when you don’t even know that you have this effect on me. Despite everything I do, I know you’ve always got your eye on someone else, and that someone isn’t me. I won’t put myself through this again. i won’t hope for a smile, a chat or even a simple nod from you. This saves me the disappointment. At the end of the day, you always find someone who is better than me. And guess what? I am okay with that. I really am. Go ahead. I am beyond the stage where I care. I have grown to accept that none of what I imagine is real and it will never be. So you can do whatever you like, it won’t affect me anymore because whatever this is, it stops here. Right now.

You have no right to have that effect on me. 

No one should be able to have that effect on me. 

do you ever dislike someone so much that you hate when people are nice to them

(Source: garlicbreadsticks, via pitch-black-perfection101)

Someone’s  kind words or a small but nice gesture can leave you smiling for days or weeks every time you think about it.

The sad part is they probably have no idea that they have this effect on you, and they most likely never will.

If you wanted to make me look dumb in front of all those others, it worked. I hope you are proud of that but you know what? You will never have that satisfaction again. Ever.